If I should die today would I die with regrets? A few maybe, but I have honestly come to terms with many of the mistakes I've made. They were lessons to be learned and I forgave myself, and others. There are some that were harder to understand than others, and a few I'm still working through. But I've learned from them all. And most importantly I've learned about me. The more I learn about who I am, the more I devoted to finding the positive in almost any situation, the happier I became. The happier I become, the closer I feel to God, the Universe, the Oneness of it all. I like how I feel these days.
Oh, sometimes I'll slip and allow circumstances to rule my emotions until I remembe two things. I charted this lifetime as I had many others and God will continue to love me no matter what. He wants what I want for me, a joyful life. And I've come to understand that sometimes you have to experience the negative to experience that positive joy.
I find joy in so much. I really try to stop and smell the flowers despite how busy life seems to get. I love looking at the sky, day or night, and just imagining its awesome vastness. And I really really enjoy my morning's first cup of coffee! I find such deep pleasure just being in the company of my loved ones and close circle of friends. Because I am a sensitive and empath, I feel their hurts deeply, but their smiles and joy also reach the very center of my heart.
And I can't begin to escribe the totally cool, completely awesome feeling that comes over me when I do a reading for someone, the connection to Spirit, the undescribeable depth of love I feel, the humbling of it all. I am truly blessed.