From journal dated 03.13.05
I was sitting on the couch after my shower, praying and thanking God, asking Him to continue to bless us all, and seeking guidance. I felt a warmth, a peace, and had the sudden insight I was being cleansed. For the past few weeks or longer, various memories would pop into my mind, old feelings of hurt, or anger and confusion, and I would wonder why am I thinking about this? Tonight I realized I was being cleansed of the old, almost forgotten negativity and unloving thoughts. It wasn't like I even felt I was hanging onto this stuff, I honestly didn't think I was, but it was coming forth, needing me to look at the old hurts with a different eye, with love and compassion. Only then can I really let go.